I haven't been writing as much blog postings as I would like to. I find that blogging for me is very therapeutic, and I believe It's a positive thing, not just for me, but for others as well. I Know for me, it is very soothing to be able to go onto YouTube and view somebodies video blogs, because often times I can Identify with them. That being said, I'm seriously going to try and write more postings.

Lately I have been doing better than I have been doing in the past. I think a big part of my new found comfort is due to the fact that I'm cutting out all the negative people from my life; my father,  his schizophrenic girlfriend, and the whole slue of white trash welfare mooching convicted felons. I cut them with a whole bunch of other negative people out of my life, because you just have to surround your self with actual human beings who have morals and positive energy. The family that I do have, which is quite a bit, are there for me and give me a strong support system. I have amazing friends, one in particular who is more like a sister to me and things are just going really good for me. I'm able to walk down the street with a smile and not have homeless men come up to me and tell me to smile. I honestly never knew that I was walking around with such an expression, but I guess I was. School is going great and I'm making really good grades. I'm working my way to the top and to become the best person I can be.



Kourt

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Rant Rant Rant

First of all , The advertisement agency for my blog, suck my tit. I have date lady boy ads on my blog featuring slutty little Thai trannys. First of all, Lady boy, who the fuck wants to be called that. Second of all, we are not in a brothel selling our bodies for a quarter and a piece of chicken . We are not all Asian either! Some of us are strong black women, and some white. Mostly we are hardworking black women with children to feed. We are grown ass women with some grown ass bills to pay.
     Anyways, How are you all doing? I'm doing great! Haven't written a blog post in a while. Here I am. I'm going to start doing vlogs, but I don't know what the topics will be. I'm sure as hell not going to do my hair like those other bitches. I do find those tutorials helpful though. If you have any suggestions for a vlog, let me know. Really hate the word , vlog. Just a girl here doing her thing;going to school and living life. For once I can't really complain. For the most part I'm enjoying myself. Well, i could complain about some of the stupid people at school and in this world, but I will spare you that novel. What the fuck, Ill go into a little detail. I have a really creepy neighbor at my new apartment. He is like permanently fried from drugs and he's only in his 20's or 30's. I was on the street minding my own business like always. This bitch came up to me and was like "damn girl your pretty", I opened my mouth, introduced my self and there unleashed the monstrous man voice. The guy was like "man ,lady, man, lady, sorry buddy your still cool. man, lady man, lady man lady".
 I was like " I'm a lady". (In my mind, I was like make up your mind what am I)
Him "where did you move from",
Me "down the street",
Him "what street?, why are you living in these apartments, buddy girl?" ( he pulls out a folded up black garbage bag with a pipe in it)
Me "nice to meet you, bye"
I really hate stupid people; the people who do drugs are the worst. What a waist of your life. The sad thing is he lives directly next door, and makes a lot of unnecessary noises. I guess that's apartment living for you.
         I'm going to go, but I will be writing more very soon. Got to go do my hair before Anthro. Yay.
Have a wonderful day everybody. Make it the best you can.

-Kourtnie the head tranny

P.S If my grammar sucks, I'm sorry. I tried my best.

Name Change and Best Aunt Ever!

Today my name change is official and legal! So happy for my new name and new start!! :)

Thanks to the best Auntie EVER!!

FREE CECE

A Spiritual Moment With Jesus Down By The Water

More and more lately I'm becoming disgusted with this world and the people in it. Why does everyone have to hate each other? I admit my whole  life I have had hate in my veins, and I still do. This is something that I just can't let take  over myself . I'm a strong ass bitch and have a strong personality,so why am I letting something so stupid take me over? It's just making wrinkles and costing me  more money out of my pocket for botox.That's Flucci that I would let someone or many someones have such a power over me and my life when they aren't even in it. I'm going to try to start letting go of all that hate, because hate is just so disgusting and so unhealthy. I love having nice people in my life and everyone does too. For the people and Things that have caused me much pain and anguish, I'm going to let go of the burden I have let you put upon my shoulders. I guess in a way I'm forgiving all these people and things, not because I want to work things out with them, but because I want to move on with my life and put all these negative people and situations behind me, so I can move on and create a new life so I can be the best person I can be. Since I'm already beautiful on the outside, I need to switch gears and start working to boost my beauty on the inside. I want to be a person that people look at and can appreciate, someone for people to look up to, so I can teach others to be the same way. By me doing so, I will be doing my part to try and make this world a better place. Fighting, screwing people over,having hostility and all the stuff that comes along with it is just not cute. I'm putting the people in the past that have hurt me, but I have to step up and apologize to the people that I have hurt,because It's a two way street. A great friend , a person who I think I hurt really bad is my friend and family member Marie. (I'm not her friend anymore, but she will always be mine.) Marie, We were great friends for a few years and were more like sisters, but near the end I fucked up so horribly bad. I take complete 100% responsibility for our friendship falling apart. I one day was with somebody who I thought was a "friend", and she probably felt threatened by what Marie and I had as friends. I for some reason got mad at my friend Marie for snapping at me on the phone when she was sick. (Yeah I have problems)At this point being with the person that  I though was my friend, I being an Idiot let this person talk me into going off on her. I'm by no means necessary blaming the girl I was with for what I did, because I make My own decisions. Anyways, I started going off on Marie for no reason, saying the most horrible things about her and her family that to this day really does make me sick. She and her family were like a second family to me,  people who are some of the nicest people I've met, and I screwed up my relationship with her and her family just because I had to feel powerful and be something I'm not. I think about you all the time Marie and the good times that we had and I miss you. I'm sorry for everything, and I'm sorry for always calling you a lesbian.I'm not going to lie, I stalk you on Facebook sometimes just to see how you are and I want you to know (if this ever gets to you somehow) that I'm super proud of you for graduating! You did it!Now on to bigger and better things for you and you will thrive at what ever it is you will do. You were one of the best friends I ever had and you were always there, I have only found that in one other friend.
 I love you and Congratulations!!!! 

Going through School, I was a bully to people. I want to apologize to everyone who I said hurtful things to, and have hurt. I'm sure all of you are turning into fabulous people and are going to do great things. I wasn't mean to you because of you, I was mean to you because of my own insecurities. Saying that, I forgive all the people who have bullied me, I know it wasn't something wrong with me. I want to thank the most bestest fiercest child of them all, The best friend a girl could ask for; Beka or Deshonayqueeshuh, I love your chicken tender loving self gurl. I couldn't ask for a better person to be friends with. You put a smile on my face and you are always there when I need you. YES! I KNOW I'm a full time job (like you said) and I love you for being able to put up with me! Thankyou for being the bestest bitch everr, now go get me some KFC. :)

I think I'm done Having a moment like Big Bertha at the New Baptist Church of  Minneapolis.

Goodnight and hallelujer praise Jesus cornbread collard greens.

Sorry for horrible grammar.