I haven't been writing as much blog postings as I would like to. I find that blogging for me is very therapeutic, and I believe It's a positive thing, not just for me, but for others as well. I Know for me, it is very soothing to be able to go onto YouTube and view somebodies video blogs, because often times I can Identify with them. That being said, I'm seriously going to try and write more postings.
Lately I have been doing better than I have been doing in the past. I think a big part of my new found comfort is due to the fact that I'm cutting out all the negative people from my life; my father, his schizophrenic girlfriend, and the whole slue of white trash welfare mooching convicted felons. I cut them with a whole bunch of other negative people out of my life, because you just have to surround your self with actual human beings who have morals and positive energy. The family that I do have, which is quite a bit, are there for me and give me a strong support system. I have amazing friends, one in particular who is more like a sister to me and things are just going really good for me. I'm able to walk down the street with a smile and not have homeless men come up to me and tell me to smile. I honestly never knew that I was walking around with such an expression, but I guess I was. School is going great and I'm making really good grades. I'm working my way to the top and to become the best person I can be.
Kourt
Thursday, November 15, 2012
Wednesday, October 10, 2012
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Monday, September 24, 2012
Rant Rant Rant
First of all , The advertisement agency for my blog, suck my tit. I have date lady boy ads on my blog featuring slutty little Thai trannys. First of all, Lady boy, who the fuck wants to be called that. Second of all, we are not in a brothel selling our bodies for a quarter and a piece of chicken . We are not all Asian either! Some of us are strong black women, and some white. Mostly we are hardworking black women with children to feed. We are grown ass women with some grown ass bills to pay.
Anyways, How are you all doing? I'm doing great! Haven't written a blog post in a while. Here I am. I'm going to start doing vlogs, but I don't know what the topics will be. I'm sure as hell not going to do my hair like those other bitches. I do find those tutorials helpful though. If you have any suggestions for a vlog, let me know. Really hate the word , vlog. Just a girl here doing her thing;going to school and living life. For once I can't really complain. For the most part I'm enjoying myself. Well, i could complain about some of the stupid people at school and in this world, but I will spare you that novel. What the fuck, Ill go into a little detail. I have a really creepy neighbor at my new apartment. He is like permanently fried from drugs and he's only in his 20's or 30's. I was on the street minding my own business like always. This bitch came up to me and was like "damn girl your pretty", I opened my mouth, introduced my self and there unleashed the monstrous man voice. The guy was like "man ,lady, man, lady, sorry buddy your still cool. man, lady man, lady man lady".
I was like " I'm a lady". (In my mind, I was like make up your mind what am I)
Him "where did you move from",
Me "down the street",
Him "what street?, why are you living in these apartments, buddy girl?" ( he pulls out a folded up black garbage bag with a pipe in it)
Me "nice to meet you, bye"
I really hate stupid people; the people who do drugs are the worst. What a waist of your life. The sad thing is he lives directly next door, and makes a lot of unnecessary noises. I guess that's apartment living for you.
I'm going to go, but I will be writing more very soon. Got to go do my hair before Anthro. Yay.
Have a wonderful day everybody. Make it the best you can.
-Kourtnie the head tranny
P.S If my grammar sucks, I'm sorry. I tried my best.
Anyways, How are you all doing? I'm doing great! Haven't written a blog post in a while. Here I am. I'm going to start doing vlogs, but I don't know what the topics will be. I'm sure as hell not going to do my hair like those other bitches. I do find those tutorials helpful though. If you have any suggestions for a vlog, let me know. Really hate the word , vlog. Just a girl here doing her thing;going to school and living life. For once I can't really complain. For the most part I'm enjoying myself. Well, i could complain about some of the stupid people at school and in this world, but I will spare you that novel. What the fuck, Ill go into a little detail. I have a really creepy neighbor at my new apartment. He is like permanently fried from drugs and he's only in his 20's or 30's. I was on the street minding my own business like always. This bitch came up to me and was like "damn girl your pretty", I opened my mouth, introduced my self and there unleashed the monstrous man voice. The guy was like "man ,lady, man, lady, sorry buddy your still cool. man, lady man, lady man lady".
I was like " I'm a lady". (In my mind, I was like make up your mind what am I)
Him "where did you move from",
Me "down the street",
Him "what street?, why are you living in these apartments, buddy girl?" ( he pulls out a folded up black garbage bag with a pipe in it)
Me "nice to meet you, bye"
I really hate stupid people; the people who do drugs are the worst. What a waist of your life. The sad thing is he lives directly next door, and makes a lot of unnecessary noises. I guess that's apartment living for you.
I'm going to go, but I will be writing more very soon. Got to go do my hair before Anthro. Yay.
Have a wonderful day everybody. Make it the best you can.
-Kourtnie the head tranny
P.S If my grammar sucks, I'm sorry. I tried my best.
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
Name Change and Best Aunt Ever!
Thanks to the best Auntie EVER!!
Saturday, June 2, 2012
A Spiritual Moment With Jesus Down By The Water
More and more lately I'm becoming disgusted with this world and the people in it. Why does everyone have to hate each other? I admit my whole life I have had hate in my veins, and I still do. This is something that I just can't let take over myself . I'm a strong ass bitch and have a strong personality,so why am I letting something so stupid take me over? It's just making wrinkles and costing me more money out of my pocket for botox.That's Flucci that I would let someone or many someones have such a power over me and my life when they aren't even in it. I'm going to try to start letting go of all that hate, because hate is just so disgusting and so unhealthy. I love having nice people in my life and everyone does too. For the people and Things that have caused me much pain and anguish, I'm going to let go of the burden I have let you put upon my shoulders. I guess in a way I'm forgiving all these people and things, not because I want to work things out with them, but because I want to move on with my life and put all these negative people and situations behind me, so I can move on and create a new life so I can be the best person I can be. Since I'm already beautiful on the outside, I need to switch gears and start working to boost my beauty on the inside. I want to be a person that people look at and can appreciate, someone for people to look up to, so I can teach others to be the same way. By me doing so, I will be doing my part to try and make this world a better place. Fighting, screwing people over,having hostility and all the stuff that comes along with it is just not cute. I'm putting the people in the past that have hurt me, but I have to step up and apologize to the people that I have hurt,because It's a two way street. A great friend , a person who I think I hurt really bad is my friend and family member Marie. (I'm not her friend anymore, but she will always be mine.) Marie, We were great friends for a few years and were more like sisters, but near the end I fucked up so horribly bad. I take complete 100% responsibility for our friendship falling apart. I one day was with somebody who I thought was a "friend", and she probably felt threatened by what Marie and I had as friends. I for some reason got mad at my friend Marie for snapping at me on the phone when she was sick. (Yeah I have problems)At this point being with the person that I though was my friend, I being an Idiot let this person talk me into going off on her. I'm by no means necessary blaming the girl I was with for what I did, because I make My own decisions. Anyways, I started going off on Marie for no reason, saying the most horrible things about her and her family that to this day really does make me sick. She and her family were like a second family to me, people who are some of the nicest people I've met, and I screwed up my relationship with her and her family just because I had to feel powerful and be something I'm not. I think about you all the time Marie and the good times that we had and I miss you. I'm sorry for everything, and I'm sorry for always calling you a lesbian.I'm not going to lie, I stalk you on Facebook sometimes just to see how you are and I want you to know (if this ever gets to you somehow) that I'm super proud of you for graduating! You did it!Now on to bigger and better things for you and you will thrive at what ever it is you will do. You were one of the best friends I ever had and you were always there, I have only found that in one other friend.
I love you and Congratulations!!!!
Going through School, I was a bully to people. I want to apologize to everyone who I said hurtful things to, and have hurt. I'm sure all of you are turning into fabulous people and are going to do great things. I wasn't mean to you because of you, I was mean to you because of my own insecurities. Saying that, I forgive all the people who have bullied me, I know it wasn't something wrong with me. I want to thank the most bestest fiercest child of them all, The best friend a girl could ask for; Beka or Deshonayqueeshuh, I love your chicken tender loving self gurl. I couldn't ask for a better person to be friends with. You put a smile on my face and you are always there when I need you. YES! I KNOW I'm a full time job (like you said) and I love you for being able to put up with me! Thankyou for being the bestest bitch everr, now go get me some KFC. :)
I think I'm done Having a moment like Big Bertha at the New Baptist Church of Minneapolis.
Goodnight and hallelujer praise Jesus cornbread collard greens.
Sorry for horrible grammar.
I love you and Congratulations!!!!
Going through School, I was a bully to people. I want to apologize to everyone who I said hurtful things to, and have hurt. I'm sure all of you are turning into fabulous people and are going to do great things. I wasn't mean to you because of you, I was mean to you because of my own insecurities. Saying that, I forgive all the people who have bullied me, I know it wasn't something wrong with me. I want to thank the most bestest fiercest child of them all, The best friend a girl could ask for; Beka or Deshonayqueeshuh, I love your chicken tender loving self gurl. I couldn't ask for a better person to be friends with. You put a smile on my face and you are always there when I need you. YES! I KNOW I'm a full time job (like you said) and I love you for being able to put up with me! Thankyou for being the bestest bitch everr, now go get me some KFC. :)
I think I'm done Having a moment like Big Bertha at the New Baptist Church of Minneapolis.
Goodnight and hallelujer praise Jesus cornbread collard greens.
Sorry for horrible grammar.
Sunday, May 27, 2012
Friday, May 18, 2012
Free Cece
Crishaun “Cece” McDonald is a young, African American, transgender woman. On June 5th this year, Cece was the target of a racist and transphobic attack along with a group of friends. When one of her attackers was killed in the struggle, Cece alone was arrested and charged with second-degree murder.
We believe that racism and transphobia permeate all layers of government, and that there is no justice for Cece in the Hennepin County legal system. We believe that a court system that defends white supremacists forfeits legitimacy. We call upon the Hennepin County Attorney Michael Freeman to drop all charges against Cece, and we call upon all people of conscious to connect with her case and engage in efforts to defend her.
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The “I Stand with Cece” poster project is an effort to capture the breadth of Cece’s support.
Take a moment to reflect on why you are drawn to Cece’s cause, and then complete the sentence on the poster below: “Because _________________, I stand with Cece.”
Sign your name underneath.
Provide contact and preference information in the bottom section to let us know how we can share your statement of support. (We won’t share your email with anyone.)
Leave the poster in the box provided when you have finished.
A companion poster is available as well. Please take one and display it proudly.
Our goal is to create a visual display that will illustrate the diversity of reasons to stand with Cece. Thank you for adding your voice to the mix.
Visit www.supportcece.wordpress.com for updates or more information.
Text by supportcece.worldpress.com
We believe that racism and transphobia permeate all layers of government, and that there is no justice for Cece in the Hennepin County legal system. We believe that a court system that defends white supremacists forfeits legitimacy. We call upon the Hennepin County Attorney Michael Freeman to drop all charges against Cece, and we call upon all people of conscious to connect with her case and engage in efforts to defend her.
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The “I Stand with Cece” poster project is an effort to capture the breadth of Cece’s support.
Take a moment to reflect on why you are drawn to Cece’s cause, and then complete the sentence on the poster below: “Because _________________, I stand with Cece.”
Sign your name underneath.
Provide contact and preference information in the bottom section to let us know how we can share your statement of support. (We won’t share your email with anyone.)
Leave the poster in the box provided when you have finished.
A companion poster is available as well. Please take one and display it proudly.
Our goal is to create a visual display that will illustrate the diversity of reasons to stand with Cece. Thank you for adding your voice to the mix.
Visit www.supportcece.wordpress.com for updates or more information.
Text by supportcece.worldpress.com
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Thursday, May 3, 2012
Hello!
Why do people feel the need to start talking to you or texting you, and the first thing out of their mouths is something depressing like "Oh I'm not doing to well" or "I'm depressed". Why do people feel the need to tell me these sort of things when they aren't doing anything about their own problems!!! Just because people brake up with their "lover" of two months doesn't mean that the whole entire universe is going to care.Things happen to everyone all the time that is not fair or disappointing, and they just need to pick themselves up and deal with it . If everyone was doing what these bitches are doing; saying that they want to kill them self because their boyfriend of 3 months Lou the guy who fucks every stanky pussy in the hood broke up with them , then for me it would be a pretty happy place because all these bitches would be in the ground. Do you ever hear the little black babies in Africa complain like people in our culture do? NO these people go through some of the worst things imaginable; being five years old and seeing their parents suffer from AIDS because they were uneducated due to the state or their country and not being able to have the lavish meals that we have, shit these people are lucky to have some damn rice if not a chicken that they traded their Aunt Attie for, these people live in mud shacks with many other people and have to endure abuse by the leaders of their country! What I'm saying is that there are a lot of people in this world who go through unimaginable things that people wouldn't for a second understand. People in this damn society are really pathetic. Shit happens, pick your self up and deal with it. People are lucky to be living in the land we live in, to be eating the food we have, to be wearing the clothes we wear, and to have the extra resources we have. If one more person un genuinely says that they are super depressed saying they want to kill themselves and it's just for attention then I'm going to be dancing at your funeral and helping you plot ways to kill your self, because you are sucking up my oxygen and soaking up my sun light. It's a true privilege to live the lives that we do , I admit I have acted this way a lot of the times with being depressed with being a tranny. Even though that shit is hard and people don't understand it , a lot of people don't want to understand it. This is fine with me because I don't need you too understand and I'm really not interested enough to take attention to your boring lives. STOP COMPLAINING AND MAKE THE BEST OF IT!!!! I have come along way in doing so and It's possible for you too. Everything happens for a reason in life, and our mistakes, choices, and everything else dictates and leads the path of our life. You break up with your boyfriend for a reason, because it doesn't work and that event leads you too the next event which in some peoples cases leads you to the love of your life. For some unknown reason to me I'm a tranny and I'm still finding out why and where that will take me but I know for sure that it has made me the strong and gorgeous firecracker that I am today. If I wasn't a tranny and didn't go through all the bullying my whole life, then I wouldn't be the person I am now. All of these magnificent haters have made me the beautiful and strong willed girl who always picks herself up when she falls. I just want to thank everyone all for all of their hate , because it has made me me, and instead of ruining me you built me! YOU LOSE :) MWAH BITCHES have a fabulous night and remember to pick yourself up and make the best of a bad situation.
KOURTNIE <3
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Poor Stravin Marvin.
Shut up about your petty problems.
People who do this should get there balls chopped off, shoved up their ass, acid poured over the open wound, and their jaw wired shut.
There are people and animals in this world who are suffering worse than any, so please
Why do people feel the need to start talking to you or texting you, and the first thing out of their mouths is something depressing like "Oh I'm not doing to well" or "I'm depressed". Why do people feel the need to tell me these sort of things when they aren't doing anything about their own problems!!! Just because people brake up with their "lover" of two months doesn't mean that the whole entire universe is going to care.Things happen to everyone all the time that is not fair or disappointing, and they just need to pick themselves up and deal with it . If everyone was doing what these bitches are doing; saying that they want to kill them self because their boyfriend of 3 months Lou the guy who fucks every stanky pussy in the hood broke up with them , then for me it would be a pretty happy place because all these bitches would be in the ground. Do you ever hear the little black babies in Africa complain like people in our culture do? NO these people go through some of the worst things imaginable; being five years old and seeing their parents suffer from AIDS because they were uneducated due to the state or their country and not being able to have the lavish meals that we have, shit these people are lucky to have some damn rice if not a chicken that they traded their Aunt Attie for, these people live in mud shacks with many other people and have to endure abuse by the leaders of their country! What I'm saying is that there are a lot of people in this world who go through unimaginable things that people wouldn't for a second understand. People in this damn society are really pathetic. Shit happens, pick your self up and deal with it. People are lucky to be living in the land we live in, to be eating the food we have, to be wearing the clothes we wear, and to have the extra resources we have. If one more person un genuinely says that they are super depressed saying they want to kill themselves and it's just for attention then I'm going to be dancing at your funeral and helping you plot ways to kill your self, because you are sucking up my oxygen and soaking up my sun light. It's a true privilege to live the lives that we do , I admit I have acted this way a lot of the times with being depressed with being a tranny. Even though that shit is hard and people don't understand it , a lot of people don't want to understand it. This is fine with me because I don't need you too understand and I'm really not interested enough to take attention to your boring lives. STOP COMPLAINING AND MAKE THE BEST OF IT!!!! I have come along way in doing so and It's possible for you too. Everything happens for a reason in life, and our mistakes, choices, and everything else dictates and leads the path of our life. You break up with your boyfriend for a reason, because it doesn't work and that event leads you too the next event which in some peoples cases leads you to the love of your life. For some unknown reason to me I'm a tranny and I'm still finding out why and where that will take me but I know for sure that it has made me the strong and gorgeous firecracker that I am today. If I wasn't a tranny and didn't go through all the bullying my whole life, then I wouldn't be the person I am now. All of these magnificent haters have made me the beautiful and strong willed girl who always picks herself up when she falls. I just want to thank everyone all for all of their hate , because it has made me me, and instead of ruining me you built me! YOU LOSE :) MWAH BITCHES have a fabulous night and remember to pick yourself up and make the best of a bad situation.
KOURTNIE <3
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There are people and animals in this world who are suffering worse than any, so please
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
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Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Bitches need to fall back
So I think that I had to do one of the most degrading things of my life! Because I'm 18 I had to register for the stupid draft. FUCK THAT!! Yeah kudos to you who choose to fight for our country, but this bitch isn't one of them! If I was fighting for your country you might as well kiss it goodbye.
Even though the form was short, I still had to fill it out and it made me feel like I was a piece of gum on the bottom of some fat ass’s shoe. This country really disappoints me. Fighting people and killing people should not be the answer to our problems that we created in the first place. When people are constantly saying this is a free country, that’s a crock of shit. You’re denied the right to bear arms in certain states cause white trash ghetto hoods think it’s okay to kill people. If we would just educate people a lot of this kind of shit wouldn't be going on! What about cruel and unusual punishment? HUH! To me this is like cruel and unusual punishment. It's not my fault my vagina grew outward instead of inward! I shouldn't be punished for society’s ignorance. I can't give blood which is fine because it's mine and I'm selfish, but what if I ever had a change of heart? Nope a Tranny can't give blood because "it" is an animal that has so many diseases. A lot of this shit wouldn't be happening if people wouldn't misinterpret the Bible. I saw a sign on one of my gay friend’s face book wall; it was a man holding a sign saying "Jesus hates gays". Question! Did Jesus come down and tell you that he couldn't stand these Flamers or are you listening to second hand information? TO ME Jesus and all that bullshit is a pile of shit. All you Jesus lovers go on loving Jesus or God or whoever the hell he is. I'm having a stroke right now. WHY do other races of people comment on these types of people when these other races have been getting the same treatment for years? Don't these bitches know they are being hypocrites? I walk down the street and hear these white guys from the back woods of Indiana where their mama is their sister, and they are calling this black guy a horrible name. Then the black guy proceeds to get mad and call a gay person a name. This shit doesn't make any sense and I'm just getting angrier. Why do people feel the need to judge people? Why does this country have to put so much focus on violence? I'm a gorgeous Tranny and I am being punished by the United States of America! I should, since it's so hard to find people who will employ a Tranny, be getting the government assistance that they give to all those hoes with 11 children and people who become grandmothers at 40. Bull
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Even though the form was short, I still had to fill it out and it made me feel like I was a piece of gum on the bottom of some fat ass’s shoe. This country really disappoints me. Fighting people and killing people should not be the answer to our problems that we created in the first place. When people are constantly saying this is a free country, that’s a crock of shit. You’re denied the right to bear arms in certain states cause white trash ghetto hoods think it’s okay to kill people. If we would just educate people a lot of this kind of shit wouldn't be going on! What about cruel and unusual punishment? HUH! To me this is like cruel and unusual punishment. It's not my fault my vagina grew outward instead of inward! I shouldn't be punished for society’s ignorance. I can't give blood which is fine because it's mine and I'm selfish, but what if I ever had a change of heart? Nope a Tranny can't give blood because "it" is an animal that has so many diseases. A lot of this shit wouldn't be happening if people wouldn't misinterpret the Bible. I saw a sign on one of my gay friend’s face book wall; it was a man holding a sign saying "Jesus hates gays". Question! Did Jesus come down and tell you that he couldn't stand these Flamers or are you listening to second hand information? TO ME Jesus and all that bullshit is a pile of shit. All you Jesus lovers go on loving Jesus or God or whoever the hell he is. I'm having a stroke right now. WHY do other races of people comment on these types of people when these other races have been getting the same treatment for years? Don't these bitches know they are being hypocrites? I walk down the street and hear these white guys from the back woods of Indiana where their mama is their sister, and they are calling this black guy a horrible name. Then the black guy proceeds to get mad and call a gay person a name. This shit doesn't make any sense and I'm just getting angrier. Why do people feel the need to judge people? Why does this country have to put so much focus on violence? I'm a gorgeous Tranny and I am being punished by the United States of America! I should, since it's so hard to find people who will employ a Tranny, be getting the government assistance that they give to all those hoes with 11 children and people who become grandmothers at 40. Bull
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The bus
The most interesting and annoying people are the kids aged 12-18. These kids are some of the most horrible people you will encounter. First we have the little 13 year old girls from the hood with their three children by their three different baby daddies who end up in Juvie for robbing an 80 year old woman for 5 dollars.
Next you have the guys who have cigarettes in their ears, Dickies pants, and red or black tall tees, holding their crotches and talking about how they ditched third period speech class to go smoke a joint.
Let’s not forget, there are the older males aged 30-60 who smell like they haven’t bathed since they came out of their mama. They are talking about their parole and how they beat some guy up for stealing his toothbrush.
The older women come next who look like they have been doing Heroin and hooking on Santa Rosa Avenue so they can support their habit and pay for their trailer space.
These people never fail to make you laugh, and this is before you get on the bus.
When the bus comes, the older women talk about going to see their old pimp who just started recruiting a younger bunch. They go on to talk about the old days which consisted of how they got fired from Circle K for doing lines in the bathroom.
My least favorites of all are the people in their wheel chairs with all their little flowers and American flags. These bitches always seem to be best buddies with the drivers, and they are always bitching to them how their disability got cut.
This is why I hate the bus, although when you’re with someone it’s a bit more fun cause you can talk about all the hoods and their welfare.
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Thursday, March 22, 2012
Men...They always disappoint
So lately I have been growing more and more hatred for the male species and how they treat me. Growing up I never got along with my father, he always acting more immature and more like a child than I . I still to this day ask my mother if there was any way possible she got drunk out of her mind and got roofied and blah blah you know. But no that's not the case my mom isn't a drunk nor a tart, she is a woman of class! But I always ask her why that man is my father. Over the course of my 18 years I have always wondered why he acts the way he acts. Throughout my childhood i have been physically and emotionally abused by him, he always telling me that I'm not going to amount to anything and constantly putting me down. One time I was cooking dinner when I was staying at his house in 4th grade, and I was browning ground beef on the stove, i picked a piece and put it in my mouth for taste. Out of no where he comes running up to me and screams at me and squeezes my neck for eating the piece of ground beef. I was 10. Another time we were fighting and he called me a dildo who calls their child a dildo? That's just horrible. My father has never really cared about my emotional state or that sort of thing ,when came time to being a father his idea was getting out his wallet and paying for things.So ultimately that's how our relationship grew, based on money.I have had hatred for my dad probably since as long as I can remember. Throughout my 18 years on this earth he has probably told me he loves me less than 20 times each of them forced. What really angers me is I get blamed for the things that go on with my father. I always get blamed for what goes on behind closed doors, what people don't know is that he is abusive and he puts on a front when around others. All my father cares about is money, and although I'm mad at him for backing out of giving me $2,000 something dollars that he has been promising to me for the past 6 months, it doesn't mean that this is the reason I'm writing this post, I'm writing this post because I'm tired of men treating me like shit, and for the past 18 years it has just been building up and building up. Dad I don't want anything to do with you anymore and you keep your money because it has no value to me.
Don't get me wrong It's not just my dad that disappoints, its men of all shapes, sizes,colors and ethnicity's.
My whole life I have been tortured and ridiculed by the male species. There is only a handful of males that i can say truly care. Men always lie to me and tell me one thing when they have no plan of following through. They don't befriend me ;because, to them a tranny is some sort of disease walking monster that will kill all. FACE IT GUYS just because I'm friendly to you does NOT mean i want your salami stick. Stop being that way I'm actually just trying to be friends with everyone! not your penis, cause honey i really don't need that extra burden. I know my beauty threatens you and makes you question your sexuality but that's not my fault I got what my mama gave me and the unknown guy who got her drunk JK ;).I just want to be friends with everyone! STOP HA TIN because you have insecurities trust me I'm a recovering hater i Know how it works.
No I don't want the salami stick and yes these gates to heaven are locked and secured with armed guards. This; however, does not mean that I don't get sad that guys "think" or "say" that I'm ugly, or say "Look at that fag", or whatever. A fag is a cigarette not a person. I like anybody in this world, want a man to want me. That's just human nature, everyone wants a man or woman to want them. But the disappointing thing about being a tranny is, that guys are too scared to even be friends with a girl like me, because they don't want to be labeled. BITCH everyone is going to label you on everything you do that's just life. But what I wish is that a guy would just simply tell me he thinks I'm beautiful or that he wants to hangout with me just for fun. That doesn't happen ,guys are just too scared. Like one guy i was talking to , he did tell me all the things I wanted to hear and he took an interest in me and i let my guard down only to get hurt. When came time to hanging out with me he couldn't be seen with me in public. I'm not a fugitive that you are harboring, I'm a human being with feelings and emotions and i just want that male companionship. It would be nice just for a flipping friend that is a male that actually wants to hang. But they are too scared ,they want to maintain their macho side.
I wish guys would be more open minded , less judging ,and to stop being so mean and just try to be nice. We all know you think it . And I want to thank all the ones that have not cared what others think you are more macho to me than any other guy with big muscles, because you stay true to your feelings and respect everybody.
And thank you Cody my wonderful brother for being the ONLY positive male role model in my life, you are more of a father to me than my own and I want to thank you.
I love you BEESH.
Bahhh
Stay Tuned
Don't get me wrong It's not just my dad that disappoints, its men of all shapes, sizes,colors and ethnicity's.
My whole life I have been tortured and ridiculed by the male species. There is only a handful of males that i can say truly care. Men always lie to me and tell me one thing when they have no plan of following through. They don't befriend me ;because, to them a tranny is some sort of disease walking monster that will kill all. FACE IT GUYS just because I'm friendly to you does NOT mean i want your salami stick. Stop being that way I'm actually just trying to be friends with everyone! not your penis, cause honey i really don't need that extra burden. I know my beauty threatens you and makes you question your sexuality but that's not my fault I got what my mama gave me and the unknown guy who got her drunk JK ;).I just want to be friends with everyone! STOP HA TIN because you have insecurities trust me I'm a recovering hater i Know how it works.
No I don't want the salami stick and yes these gates to heaven are locked and secured with armed guards. This; however, does not mean that I don't get sad that guys "think" or "say" that I'm ugly, or say "Look at that fag", or whatever. A fag is a cigarette not a person. I like anybody in this world, want a man to want me. That's just human nature, everyone wants a man or woman to want them. But the disappointing thing about being a tranny is, that guys are too scared to even be friends with a girl like me, because they don't want to be labeled. BITCH everyone is going to label you on everything you do that's just life. But what I wish is that a guy would just simply tell me he thinks I'm beautiful or that he wants to hangout with me just for fun. That doesn't happen ,guys are just too scared. Like one guy i was talking to , he did tell me all the things I wanted to hear and he took an interest in me and i let my guard down only to get hurt. When came time to hanging out with me he couldn't be seen with me in public. I'm not a fugitive that you are harboring, I'm a human being with feelings and emotions and i just want that male companionship. It would be nice just for a flipping friend that is a male that actually wants to hang. But they are too scared ,they want to maintain their macho side.
I wish guys would be more open minded , less judging ,and to stop being so mean and just try to be nice. We all know you think it . And I want to thank all the ones that have not cared what others think you are more macho to me than any other guy with big muscles, because you stay true to your feelings and respect everybody.
And thank you Cody my wonderful brother for being the ONLY positive male role model in my life, you are more of a father to me than my own and I want to thank you.
I love you BEESH.
Bahhh
Stay Tuned
Hey everybody!!
So the quiet tranny who never talks has decided to write a blog!! This blog is going to be about anything and everything, basically whatever I feel like talking about when i write it!!! :) and of course you will have a much deeper look into my life as a fierce and fabulous trans girl.
Today's topic is my name change. I started my transition when i was 13 and now that I'm turning 18 I want to change my name. Going through many name possibilities over the last few years, one that has always stuck and stuck for a long period of time and still sticks!!! is Kourtnie.When i was 13 i wanted to name myself Valerie. EWW all that reminds me of now is being fat and doing a Jenny Craig commercial. So when I decided upon Kourtniee (yes that weird spelling) it stuck for some reason and I'm still loving it! So I'm very soon going to be in the process of changing my name to Kourtnie (took 1e off the end) I'm excited for that!
At this point I'm starting to realize that we only have one life to live and it goes by oh so very fast! Its already 2012!!! who knows, were supposed to die at the end of the year on the same day Snooki gives birth! (that should tell us something right there) no but life is short and we only have one of them and I no longer give a flying you know what about what people say or think. I'm doing me and I'm doing everything I want to do and everything that makes me happy. Life is great! you just have to make it great! AND I'm no longer going to be that quiet girl because that's not me!! if your really close to me you know I'M LOUD so EFF the haters you all secretly love me anyway!!. DUH!! .
Her music flows through me like an electric current!! Bye Stay Tuned!!
facebook.com/girlgreens
So the quiet tranny who never talks has decided to write a blog!! This blog is going to be about anything and everything, basically whatever I feel like talking about when i write it!!! :) and of course you will have a much deeper look into my life as a fierce and fabulous trans girl.
Today's topic is my name change. I started my transition when i was 13 and now that I'm turning 18 I want to change my name. Going through many name possibilities over the last few years, one that has always stuck and stuck for a long period of time and still sticks!!! is Kourtnie.When i was 13 i wanted to name myself Valerie. EWW all that reminds me of now is being fat and doing a Jenny Craig commercial. So when I decided upon Kourtniee (yes that weird spelling) it stuck for some reason and I'm still loving it! So I'm very soon going to be in the process of changing my name to Kourtnie (took 1e off the end) I'm excited for that!
At this point I'm starting to realize that we only have one life to live and it goes by oh so very fast! Its already 2012!!! who knows, were supposed to die at the end of the year on the same day Snooki gives birth! (that should tell us something right there) no but life is short and we only have one of them and I no longer give a flying you know what about what people say or think. I'm doing me and I'm doing everything I want to do and everything that makes me happy. Life is great! you just have to make it great! AND I'm no longer going to be that quiet girl because that's not me!! if your really close to me you know I'M LOUD so EFF the haters you all secretly love me anyway!!. DUH!! .
Her music flows through me like an electric current!! Bye Stay Tuned!!
facebook.com/girlgreens
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