Name Change and Best Aunt Ever!

Today my name change is official and legal! So happy for my new name and new start!! :)

Thanks to the best Auntie EVER!!

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A Spiritual Moment With Jesus Down By The Water

More and more lately I'm becoming disgusted with this world and the people in it. Why does everyone have to hate each other? I admit my whole  life I have had hate in my veins, and I still do. This is something that I just can't let take  over myself . I'm a strong ass bitch and have a strong personality,so why am I letting something so stupid take me over? It's just making wrinkles and costing me  more money out of my pocket for botox.That's Flucci that I would let someone or many someones have such a power over me and my life when they aren't even in it. I'm going to try to start letting go of all that hate, because hate is just so disgusting and so unhealthy. I love having nice people in my life and everyone does too. For the people and Things that have caused me much pain and anguish, I'm going to let go of the burden I have let you put upon my shoulders. I guess in a way I'm forgiving all these people and things, not because I want to work things out with them, but because I want to move on with my life and put all these negative people and situations behind me, so I can move on and create a new life so I can be the best person I can be. Since I'm already beautiful on the outside, I need to switch gears and start working to boost my beauty on the inside. I want to be a person that people look at and can appreciate, someone for people to look up to, so I can teach others to be the same way. By me doing so, I will be doing my part to try and make this world a better place. Fighting, screwing people over,having hostility and all the stuff that comes along with it is just not cute. I'm putting the people in the past that have hurt me, but I have to step up and apologize to the people that I have hurt,because It's a two way street. A great friend , a person who I think I hurt really bad is my friend and family member Marie. (I'm not her friend anymore, but she will always be mine.) Marie, We were great friends for a few years and were more like sisters, but near the end I fucked up so horribly bad. I take complete 100% responsibility for our friendship falling apart. I one day was with somebody who I thought was a "friend", and she probably felt threatened by what Marie and I had as friends. I for some reason got mad at my friend Marie for snapping at me on the phone when she was sick. (Yeah I have problems)At this point being with the person that  I though was my friend, I being an Idiot let this person talk me into going off on her. I'm by no means necessary blaming the girl I was with for what I did, because I make My own decisions. Anyways, I started going off on Marie for no reason, saying the most horrible things about her and her family that to this day really does make me sick. She and her family were like a second family to me,  people who are some of the nicest people I've met, and I screwed up my relationship with her and her family just because I had to feel powerful and be something I'm not. I think about you all the time Marie and the good times that we had and I miss you. I'm sorry for everything, and I'm sorry for always calling you a lesbian.I'm not going to lie, I stalk you on Facebook sometimes just to see how you are and I want you to know (if this ever gets to you somehow) that I'm super proud of you for graduating! You did it!Now on to bigger and better things for you and you will thrive at what ever it is you will do. You were one of the best friends I ever had and you were always there, I have only found that in one other friend.
 I love you and Congratulations!!!! 

Going through School, I was a bully to people. I want to apologize to everyone who I said hurtful things to, and have hurt. I'm sure all of you are turning into fabulous people and are going to do great things. I wasn't mean to you because of you, I was mean to you because of my own insecurities. Saying that, I forgive all the people who have bullied me, I know it wasn't something wrong with me. I want to thank the most bestest fiercest child of them all, The best friend a girl could ask for; Beka or Deshonayqueeshuh, I love your chicken tender loving self gurl. I couldn't ask for a better person to be friends with. You put a smile on my face and you are always there when I need you. YES! I KNOW I'm a full time job (like you said) and I love you for being able to put up with me! Thankyou for being the bestest bitch everr, now go get me some KFC. :)

I think I'm done Having a moment like Big Bertha at the New Baptist Church of  Minneapolis.

Goodnight and hallelujer praise Jesus cornbread collard greens.

Sorry for horrible grammar.