Bitches need to fall back

So I think that I had to do one of the most degrading things of my life!  Because I'm 18 I had to register for the stupid draft. FUCK THAT!! Yeah kudos to you who choose to fight for our country, but this bitch isn't one of them! If I was fighting for your country you might as well kiss it goodbye.
Even though the form was short, I still had to fill it out and it made me feel like I was a piece of gum on the bottom of some fat ass’s shoe. This country really disappoints me. Fighting people and killing people should not be the answer to our problems that we created in the first place. When people are constantly saying this is a free country, that’s a crock of shit. You’re denied the right to bear arms in certain states cause white trash ghetto hoods think it’s okay to kill people. If we would just educate people a lot of this kind of shit wouldn't be going on! What about cruel and unusual punishment? HUH! To me this is like cruel and unusual punishment. It's not my fault my vagina grew outward instead of inward! I shouldn't be punished for society’s ignorance. I can't give blood which is fine because it's mine and I'm selfish, but what if I ever had a change of heart? Nope a Tranny can't give blood because "it" is an animal that has so many diseases. A lot of this shit wouldn't be happening if people wouldn't misinterpret the Bible. I saw a sign on one of my gay friend’s face book wall; it was a man holding a sign saying "Jesus hates gays". Question! Did Jesus come down and tell you that he couldn't stand these Flamers or are you listening to second hand information? TO ME Jesus and all that bullshit is a pile of shit. All you Jesus lovers go on loving Jesus or God or whoever the hell he is. I'm having a stroke right now. WHY do other races of people comment on these types of people when these other races have been getting the same treatment for years? Don't these bitches know they are being hypocrites? I walk down the street and hear these white guys from the back woods of Indiana where their mama is their sister, and they are calling this black guy a horrible name. Then the black guy proceeds to get mad and call a gay person a name. This shit doesn't make any sense and I'm just getting angrier. Why do people feel the need to judge people? Why does this country have to put so much focus on violence?  I'm a gorgeous Tranny and I am being punished by the United States of America! I should, since it's so hard to find people who will employ a Tranny, be getting the government assistance that they give to all those hoes with 11 children and people who become grandmothers at 40. Bull


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The bus

Ok so a lot of us have to ride the bus at some point or another in our life. Riding the bus is a very interesting and time consuming pain in the butt, but it never fails to make you laugh. When waiting at the transit mall for your bus to come, you encounter many types of interesting but stupid people.

 The most interesting and annoying people are the kids aged 12-18. These kids are some of the most horrible people you will encounter. First we have the little 13 year old girls from the hood with their three children by their three different baby daddies who end up in Juvie for robbing an 80 year old woman for 5 dollars.

Next you have the guys who have cigarettes in their ears, Dickies pants, and red or black tall tees, holding their crotches and talking about how they ditched third period speech class to go smoke a joint.

Let’s not forget, there are the older males aged 30-60 who smell like they haven’t bathed since they came out of their mama. They are talking about their parole and how they beat some guy up for stealing his toothbrush.

The older women come next who look like they have been doing Heroin and hooking on Santa Rosa Avenue so they can support their habit and pay for their trailer space.

These people never fail to make you laugh, and this is before you get on the bus.

 When the bus comes, the older women talk about going to see their old pimp who just started recruiting a younger bunch. They go on to talk about the old days which consisted of how they got fired from Circle K for doing lines in the bathroom.

My least favorites of all are the people in their wheel chairs with all their little flowers and American flags. These bitches always seem to be best buddies with the drivers, and they are always bitching to them how their disability got cut.

This is why I hate the bus, although when you’re with someone it’s a bit more fun cause you can talk about all the hoods and their welfare.


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Men...They always disappoint

So lately I have been growing more and more hatred for the male species and how they treat me. Growing up I never got along with my father, he always acting more immature and more like a child than I . I still to this day ask my mother if there was any way possible she got drunk out of her mind and got roofied and blah blah you know. But no that's not the case my mom isn't a drunk nor a tart, she is a woman of class! But I always ask her why that man is my father. Over the course of my 18 years I have always wondered why he acts the way he acts. Throughout my childhood i have been physically and emotionally abused by him, he always telling me that I'm not going to amount to anything and constantly  putting me down. One time I was cooking dinner when I was staying at his house in 4th grade, and I was browning ground beef on the stove, i picked a piece and put it in my mouth for taste. Out of no where he comes running up to me and screams at me and squeezes my neck for eating the piece of ground beef. I was 10. Another time we were fighting and he called me a dildo who calls their child a dildo? That's just horrible. My father has never really cared about my emotional state or that sort of thing ,when came time to being a father his idea was getting out his wallet and paying for things.So ultimately that's how our relationship grew, based on money.I have had hatred for my dad probably since as long as I can remember. Throughout my 18 years on this earth he has probably told me he loves me less than 20 times each of them forced. What really angers me is I get blamed for the things that go on with my father. I always get blamed for what goes on behind closed doors, what people don't know is that he is abusive and he puts on a front when around others. All my father cares about is money, and although I'm mad at him for backing out of giving me $2,000 something dollars that he has been promising to me for the past 6 months, it doesn't mean that this is the reason I'm writing this post, I'm writing this post because I'm tired of men treating me like shit, and for the past 18 years it has just been building up and building up. Dad I don't want anything to do with you anymore and you keep your money because it has no value to me.

Don't get me wrong It's not just my dad that disappoints, its men of all shapes, sizes,colors and ethnicity's.
My whole life I have been tortured and ridiculed by the male species. There is only a handful of males that i can say truly care. Men always lie to me and tell me one thing when they have no plan of following through. They don't befriend me ;because, to them a tranny is some sort of disease walking monster that will kill all. FACE IT GUYS just because I'm friendly to you does NOT mean i want your salami stick. Stop being that way I'm actually just trying to be friends with everyone! not your penis, cause honey i really don't need that extra burden. I know my beauty threatens you and makes you question your sexuality but that's not my fault I got what my mama gave me and the unknown guy who got her drunk JK ;).I just want to be friends with everyone! STOP HA TIN because you have insecurities trust me I'm a recovering hater i Know how it works.

No I don't want the salami stick and yes these gates to heaven are locked and secured with armed guards. This; however, does not mean that I don't get sad that guys "think" or "say" that I'm ugly, or say "Look at that fag", or whatever. A fag is a cigarette not a person. I like anybody in this world, want a man to want me. That's just human nature, everyone wants a man or woman to want them. But the disappointing thing about being a tranny is, that guys are too scared to even be friends with a girl like me, because they don't want to be labeled. BITCH everyone is going to label you on everything you do that's just life. But what I wish is that a guy would just simply tell me he thinks I'm beautiful or that he wants to hangout with me just for fun. That doesn't happen ,guys are just too  scared. Like one guy  i was talking to , he did tell me all the things I wanted to hear and he took an interest in me and i let my guard down only to get hurt. When came time to hanging out with me he couldn't be seen with me in public. I'm not a fugitive that you are harboring, I'm a human being with feelings and emotions and i just want that male companionship. It would be nice just for a flipping friend that is a male that actually wants to hang. But they are too scared ,they want to maintain their macho side.

I wish guys would be more open minded , less judging ,and to stop being so mean and just try to be nice. We all know you think it . And I want to thank all the ones that have not cared what others think you are more macho to me than any other guy with big muscles, because you stay true to your feelings and respect everybody.

And thank you Cody my wonderful brother for being the ONLY positive male role model in my life, you are more of a father to me than my own and I want to thank you.
              I love you BEESH.

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            Stay Tuned

Hey everybody!!

So the quiet tranny who never talks has decided to write a blog!! This blog is going to be about anything and everything, basically whatever I feel like talking about when i write it!!! :) and of course you will have a much deeper look into my life as a fierce and fabulous trans girl.

Today's topic is my name change. I started my transition when i was 13 and now that I'm turning 18 I want to change my name. Going through many name possibilities over the last few years, one that has always stuck and stuck for a long period of time and still sticks!!! is Kourtnie.When i was 13 i wanted to name myself Valerie. EWW all that reminds me of now is being fat and doing a Jenny Craig commercial. So when I decided upon Kourtniee (yes that weird spelling) it stuck for some reason and I'm still loving it! So I'm very soon going to be in the process of changing my name to Kourtnie (took 1e off the end) I'm excited for that!
At this point I'm starting to realize that we only have one life to live and it goes by oh so very fast! Its already 2012!!! who knows, were supposed to die at the end of the year on the same day Snooki gives birth! (that should tell us something right there) no but life is short and we only have one of them and I no longer give a flying you know what about what people say or think. I'm doing me and I'm doing everything I want to do and everything that makes me happy. Life is great! you just have to make it great! AND I'm no longer going to be that quiet girl because that's not me!! if your really close to me you know I'M LOUD so EFF the haters you all secretly love me anyway!!. DUH!! . 

Her music flows through me like an electric current!!                         Bye Stay Tuned!!

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